thoughts on mother's day

this afternoon is quiet and, for once in the past few years i am not wishing i am NOT a momma. was that confusing? well, i will expand and the meaning should become clear. for the past few years, mother's day has come and gone with a flurry of bad attitudes, screaming, and crying...and not all from the kids. while there are plenty of days that i thoroughly enjoy being a momma, there are a lot of peaks and valleys on this ride called motherhood. how can this be, you ask? i stay home with my kids, choose to homeschool...how can i admit that i have many days i would love to pack up and go to a warm beach. by myself. for a LONG time. well, for starters, it's the truth. secondly, i'm sure i'm not the only one who feels like this. once we embrace the truth we can cry out in honesty to God who will sustain, help, and change us. AND, we can reach out to each other...because we all have those days when we want to sell our children and run away. i am quite aware that the last few years have been crazy. lots of young children with lots of needs. lots of energy required for each day and little sleep. a time is coming, and perhaps is already arriving, when independence and age will bring with them sanity...ever-increasing sanity. at least that is my hope. though then i may have to give up my url. :)

so this year, i am not wishing to NOT be a momma. i am happy to be a momma. later today i will probably go crazy and recant that sentiment, but for now i smile and say,

"happy mother's day!"